MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!

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ALOHA AND WELCOME TO MY PERSONAL BLOG!!! I THOUGHT WHY NOT SHARE MY PERSONAL GAINS & STRUGGLES THAT LIFE PUTS OUT TO EACH AND ONE OF US. I FEEL THAT THROUGH THE GIFT OF "GIVING & SHARING", THERE IS NO WAY BETTER THAN START THIS BLOG WHICH IS ALL ABOUT ME, MY OHANA (FAMILY), HOALOHA (FRIENDS), AND EVEN ENEMIES WHICH ARE THE VERY ONES I NEED TO LOVE AND ACCEPT.


I'LL SAY THIS STRAIGHT UP, I DON'T HOLD BACK MY FEELINGS FOR ANYONE AND IT'LL COME OUT OF MY MOUTH ON HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU AND OTHERS. I DON'T GO BEHIND ANYONE'S BACK AND START RUMOURS WITH HOPES THAT IT WILL CIRCLE AROUND AND FINALLY HIT ITS TARGET. WHY TAKE THE LONG ROUTE WHEN I CAN GO STRAIGHT TO THE POINT. PERSONALLY, I THINK THAT IS THE "REAL" WAY OF LIVING LIFE, "BE REAL" AT ALL TIMES EVEN WHEN THE WORLD IS WATCHING.


ON THE OTHER NOTE, "I AM" THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE FROM THE WAY "I SEE IT". I AM NOT SPEAKING FROM OTHER PEOPLE'S FEEDBACK OR "CONCEITEDNESS". "THIS IS" WHAT I CHOOSE TO SEE MYSELF EVERYDAY WHEN I WAKE UP FROM MY BED AND THANK "AKUA" (GOD) FOR GIVING ME ONE MORE DAY TO LIVE, REGARDLESS OF REGRETS FROM THE "YESTERDAYS" TO THE FEARS OF "TOMMOROWS".


IN MY EYES, LIVING A "BEAUTIFUL LIFE" CAN ONLY BE ATTAINED BY "CHOICE" AND IT REQUIRES "INTEGRITY", "HONESTY", "UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE", "FORGIVENESS" AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, "LOVE".


AS MY BEAUTIFUL ANCESTORS HAVED ALWAYS BELIEVED:


'Ike aku, 'ike mai, kokua aku kokua mai; pela iho la ka nohana 'ohana.


WHICH MEANS, RECOGNIZE OTHERS, BE RECOGNIZED, HELP OTHERS, BE HELPED; SUCH IS A FAMILY RELATIONSHIP.


SO ONCE AGAIN, "WELCOME TO MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!"


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Friday, March 11, 2016

HITTING ROCK BOTTOM AND WAKING UP THE WARRIOR TO RISE AGAIN!!!

ALOHA EVERYONE!!!
 
WITH MY RECENT BLOG ON WORKING FOR ALASKA AIRLINES, I FEEL THAT I NEED TO SHARE THIS AS WELL AS I'M SURE ALOT OF YOU FOLKS HAVE EITHER BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE IF YOU WORKED MORE THAN ONE JOB AT THE SAME TIME.  SINCE I'VE BEEN HIRED AND CURRENTLY WORKING FOR ALASKA AIRLINES, I STILL HOLD MY OTHER JOB AT "STATE OF ALASKA - THE BETHEL YOUTH FACILITY"...  15 YEARS AND I'M STILL WORKING FOR THEM, HECK MIGHT AS WELL SINCE I MAKE DAMN GOOD MONEY WITH THEM AND I'M BANKING A KILLER RETIREMENT TOO!!!
 
ANYWAYS BACK TO WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY...  WORKING 2 JOBS DEFINITLEY TOOK A HUGE TOLL ON MY BODY, I'M NOT IN MY "20 SOMETHINGS" ANYMORE WHERE BACK THEN I WORKED 2-3 JOBS WITH NO PROBLEM.  NOW 20 YEARS LATER...  DAMN...  MY WHOLE LIFE SHIFTED AND BOY WAS I IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENING!!!
 
I'VE REALLY "SLACKED" ON MY WORKOUTS AND HEALTHY EATINGS!!!  I GOT SUPER TIRED AND ALL I WANNA DO IS SLEEP FOREVER AND WHEN I DO WAKE UP I REALIZE I DIDN'T PREP ANYTHING HEALTHY TO EAT WHICH THEN LEADS TO ORDERING OUT AND HITTING THE QUICK SNACKS BEFORE I HEAD BACK TO WORK!!!  MY SLEEP PATTERNS WAS REALLY WHACKED AND THAT PLAYS A HUGE PART IN MAINTAINING A HEALTHY AND FIT LIFESTYLE!!!
 
THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SEVERAL MONTHS AND I STARTED TO GAIN MY WEIGHT TO A SCARY 300LBS!!!  I WAS LIKE "FUCK MY LIFE"...  RIGHT???
 
MY CLOTHES WERE NO LONGER FITTING ME, I BECAME OUT OF SHAPE REAL FAST AND DANGEROUSLY UNHEALTHY!!!
 
AND IT EVEN GOT WORST...  MID JANUARY 2016, I TESTED POSITIVE FOR "TUBERCULOSIS", NOW I'M REALLY FUCKED, RIGHT???
 
AFTER BEING DIAGNOSED WITH A POSITIVE SKIN REACTION, I GOT PUT ON HOME CONFINEMNENT FOR A WEEK WITH NO CONTACT WITH ANYONE, JUST LIKE BEING IN PRISON, I ALSO HAD TO TAKE A SHIT LOAD OF MEDICATIONS (20 FUCKING PILLS EVERYDAY FOR 5-7 DAYS) AND THEN IT GOT REDUCED TO TWICE A WEEK FOR THE NEXT 5-6 WEEKS, BUT STILL...  20 FUCKING PILLS???  WHERE IS THE LOVE???
 
SO AS YOU CAN SEE...  I WENT THROUGH SOME NASTY BULLSHITS!!!
 
BUT WHEN I LOOK BACK AT MY LAST 5 MONTHS OF "MY LIFE", I REALIZE SOMETHING...  I GOT LOST AND UNFOCUSED WITH MY GOALS.  EXCUSES OR NOT, ALASKA AIRLINES, TUBERCULOSIS, POOR DIETING, NO EXERCISING, DEPRESSION, LONELINESS, ETC...  THESE EXCUSES SHOULD HAVE NEVER INTERFERRED WITH MY MOMENTUM AND HARD WORK AT LIVING "MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!"
 
I'VE LOST MY SELF-CONFIDENCE, I BECAME ANGRY AND STARTED TO BLAME OTHERS...  AND SADLY...  I ALMOST LOST EVERYTHING THAT MATTERED TO ME THE MOST!!!
 
 I PRETTY MUCH HIT ROCK BOTTOM...  
 
3 WEEKS AGO...  I SOMEHOW FOUND THE COUARGE TO GET BACK UP AND START ALL OVER AGAIN AND BEGAN TO ELIMINATE "ANYTHING & EVERYTHING" THAT HOLDS ME BACK FROM MOVING FORWARD...  MY MOST DIFFICULT CHALLENGE WAS TO REDO MY FRIENDS LIST AND I PRETTY MUCH ELIMINATED 90% OF THE LIST INCLUDING FAMILY MEMBERS TOO!!!  THAT WAS PRETTY HARD AND I'M STILL GRIEVING MY LOSS BUT IT NEEDED TO BE DONE IN ORDER FOR ME TO GET BACK ON MY FEET AND CONTINUE ON MY JOURNEY.
 
I MUST HONESTLY SAY AND ADMIT TO THIS, I AM GLAD THAT I WENT THROUGH THESE TRIALS, IT WOKE ME UP, SHARPENED MY INSTINCTS, MADE ME STRONGER THAN EVER TO FIGHT THE UNEXPECTED, AND MY "WARRIOR" HAS BEEN AWAKEN AND IT IS HUNGRY FOR BLOOD, SWEAT, AND VICTORY!!!
 
THE DESTRUCTION OF LIES ANDS DEFEATS IS NO LONGER...  LET THE FEEDING BEGINS!!! 
 
AND SO "MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE" CONTINUES...
 
 
THIS PIC WAS TAKEN WINTER 2014!!!
 
 
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